You Are Not Alone

I used to feel so alone. That my eating habits were one of a kind. I'm beginning to realize that most people have a comfort relationship to food. I am certainly jealous of those who don't. I feel like I have come a long way, although I am not perfect. I still have bad days, where I just don't care and don't want to think about the consequences. Comfort food is a true honest battle for me. I know we all have our weaknesses, and I can fully admit that food is one of them for me. I have used food to self medicate myself since my parents divorced when I was thirteen. Eating, overeating, allows me to fill the basic need for comfort in that moment when the emotions are going wild. And yes, I want all you comfort eaters to realize, IT IS ONLY A MOMENT! Sure comfort eating might make us feel better for a moment, and I absolutely realize that moment feels worth it. A moment of pleasure sounds better than just dealing with my emotions in a moment of weakness. I have been working on a measure of forgiveness to myself. And, I can honestly say, after many years, I think I have achieved it! How do I know that? Because I don't give up on myself anymore. I keep moving forward because I want to conquer this battle. When I have the anxiety to eat, I force myself to work through the emotions. If I do, when the emotions are over, I feel a great sense of accomplishment. When I give in, it is a temporary fix. Not only do I feel physically sick, but my emotions feel worse than when I started.

So here is my encouragement: I challenge all you emotional eaters out there to feel the accomplishment of success. Forgive yourself for past mistakes, move forward, and overcome this challenge. If you are like me, this is the hardest thing you will ever do, but it will be the most rewarding!

New Challenge Starts Monday

New challenge for Healthy Wife Happy life starts Monday!

I am so excited! I didn't participate in the last challenge do to traveling and I am excited to get back into it. I know I've done this post before, but I can't emphasize how amazing these women are. This blog is such a huge support for anyone just looking to live a healthier life. I went into this blog only knowing one person. I highly encourage all to join and I can think of a few, not to mention names, who read this blog, who would have so much fun with this challenge. Check it out. You have til Monday before the next challenge starts.

http://ahealthywifeequalshappylife.blogspot.com/2010/06/put-your-final-points-here.html

In a Slump, Not a Funk

I just celebraed my ten year anniversary with the hubby. We decided it was time to leave the kids for a week and go on a vacation. We headed to St. John Virgin Islands. The picture above still doesn't do it justice. We had a relaxing vacation snorkeling, and lounging on the beach. It was AMAZING to say the least! I came home all jazzed and ready to hit the exercise hard again, but I hate to admit, I am in a slump (very different than a funk) While I feel the motivation, I am exhausted. How do I get in gear when all I want to do is crash on the couch? I read Trainer Momma's recent post on traveling:

http://trainermomma.blogspot.com/2010/06/traveling-fit-momma-style.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+TrainerMomma+%28Trainer+Momma%29

So good! While I am so used to throwing in the towel and eating whatever I want on vacation, it doesn't feel so good anymore. Time to readjust my way of traveling.

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SIX

6. . .SIX. . .really?. . . .6!!

So, I went to the clothes store this week. (Never good right?) The outing was spawned by the lack of clothes that I can squeeze into. (My baby is precious, but really? do I HAVE to kill my body to have one?) I get there and try on my previous fat size.

NOpe.

Don't fit.

I grab the size bigger.

Nope. Going again.

18!!!! I'm an 18. Okay, so I know that this is not the fattest I COULD be or that anyone HAS been, but it's the fattest I'VE ever been. Even after my freshman 20.

If I have to gain 6 sizes over every pregnancy. I'm not having anymore!

Ugh.

That's also how my exercising has felt. Less than productive. But I do go out walking ever morning. It's a step in the right direction. RIght?

Work out music?

I have found exercising to be a lot more enjoyable when I do it to music. I was curious, what music do you guys listen to when you excerise?

A Little Anxious

There are two things that are getting me a little anxious:

This fun challenge starts today. YAY! I had big plans today to get my miles in. The four year old has his final day at preschool today. It's a Teddy Bear Picnic in the park. We were going to walk up so mom can start her miles. Life always has challenges and I've learned that being a mom doesn't always allow your days to happen the way you would like. The two younger boys have been throwing up this last week. Yeah, the four year old is on day 9! GRRRR! He's so happy and then he'll run in the bathroom, puke, and run off and keep playing. The six year old woke up at 4:30 this morning and has been throwing up non stop. I think I might have to come up with a plan B. I'm a little exhausted to say the least, but no excuse, right. I'll find time squeeze in the miles sometime today. Even if it's on the boring dreadmill, oh I mean treadmill while the youngest has a nap.

I am so excited that these have finally arrived! I can't wait to workout so I can try them out. They are called Powerblock Sportsblock 3-24 Pound Adjustable Dumbbell set. I've been eyeing these beauties since Trainer Momma mentioned they were her favorite. Brent got some gift certificates at work and generously gave them to me so I could order them on Amazon. How exciting that new exercise equipment gets me excited.

I Am Still Thinking About It!

Before I go any further with this post, did you remember you only have 4 more days to sign up for these two amazing challenges. I know you've been busy, and trying to find time to do it. Now is the time! I promise you won't regret it. Click the link on the right sidebar to find out how to join or leave a comment and I'll give you some instructions.

I am still thinking about the events of this morning. It began when my alarm was set to go off at 5:35. (Yes, at that time in the morning, five minutes does make a huge different.) I opened my eyes at 5:34 to see if it was almost time to get up. YES!! I jumped out of bed, put on my running clothes, scarfed down my banana, and drove to my mom's house for our first early morning run of the season. I was thinking we would do a nice leisurely run, but she had a different plan. She wanted to take on the four mile hill climb. AHHHH, not the four mile hill climb! I don't know if I'm ready for the four mile hill climb. I didn't want to tell her that, so I reluctantly agreed. Do you think I made it?
YES!!! I did it! Talk about a huge mental boost. The best part is my legs and rear end are only slightly feeling the effects of the run. BEST RUN EVER! I am still thinking about this morning.

Then, to top it all off, I made this for breakfast:

1 Sunny Side Up Egg with the yolk completely cooked

1 Toasted Sandwich Thins

2 Tablespoons of Avocado

1 oz of Mozzarella Cheese, melted between the egg and warm toasted sandwich thin.

All for a whopping 310 calories. Yes, I measure everything out. It's so easy for me to overeat on cheese and avocado without even knowing. OH MY! I usually don't reflect back on a healthy meal and anxiously wait to try it again, but this one is going to be repeated in the morning.