Friday, June 11, 2010

SIX

6. . .SIX. . .really?. . . .6!!

So, I went to the clothes store this week. (Never good right?) The outing was spawned by the lack of clothes that I can squeeze into. (My baby is precious, but really? do I HAVE to kill my body to have one?) I get there and try on my previous fat size.

NOpe.

Don't fit.

I grab the size bigger.

Nope. Going again.

18!!!! I'm an 18. Okay, so I know that this is not the fattest I COULD be or that anyone HAS been, but it's the fattest I'VE ever been. Even after my freshman 20.

If I have to gain 6 sizes over every pregnancy. I'm not having anymore!

Ugh.

That's also how my exercising has felt. Less than productive. But I do go out walking ever morning. It's a step in the right direction. RIght?

3 comments:

  1. Oh, that is soo hard. I remember going out to buy clothes after having my second baby and wanting to cry in the dressing room. I don't remember what size I was but I was crushed that I had to get clothes in the plus sizes.

    It is good that you are continuing to do something. If you plug along even when you don't feel like it, it usually gets easier. Sorry you are feeling ugh. I hope it gets better.

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  2. Wow, Phannie, I can totally relate! That was my size two after I had my second (then lost a bunch) and gained it all back with my third. There was some serious emotions I had involved with that. Hang in there. It isn't permanent.

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  3. Thanks. I asked my mom about the weight gain/loss when having kids (big mistake) and she just kind of shrugged. (my mom still hasn't lost the weight. It's been almost 20 years)

    I'll keep at it. Some days feel better than others.

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